First Love

Hello .... Apa kabar?
Hari ini aku ngerasa kumat lagi. Iya kumat semua tentang kamu. Aku tau ini salah ini juga gak masuk akal. Tapi aku emang gak bisa buat munafik sama perasaan yang sudah melekat ini. Gak ada yang nyangka loh begitu pula aku ...:')

By : Valentine

bad

This night really different for me. somehow my feelings again was really abstract. I'm confused who want the same story. for me until this time Keith would anyone really able to understand me than he was at that time that could make me feel comfortable and not have a load. since you go getting ruined my life and my heart was really quiet and empty. friends of friends I had come to disappear one by one after you disappeared from my life. sometimes I wish if I was a man. because for me he is easy not complicated, simple, and not rich girl wants many many asked, nonchalant, not sensitive. and may I include that criteria. I could not feel the love that was really sincere that was near me. sometimes I was tired, why do I live this way really, the problem is everywhere. and I was really lonely now. my friends today again I do not really fit. I'm confused I was wrong not you think the same way that I take now? as if I really was so damaged in the eyes of my sight. but yeah how else would God give us a destiny already too rich like this to me. I prepared if one day vengeance into my life with a million meanings :)

Rain for The Reason

malam ini hujan turun lagi...seakan mengingatkan aku pada sesuatu yang tak perlu untuk aku ingat...

bagiku hujan itu merupakan momen yang sangat penting dalam waktuku untuk selalu tidak aku lewati. aku selalu berharap hujan akan datang dalam setiap sepiku. aku tidak pernah meminta untuk selalu ada yang menemaniku saat aku terpuruk. karena bagiku tiap rintikan hujanpun sudah sangat melengkapi dalam setiap malam sunyiku. hujanpun setia padaku tak membiarkan setetespun air yang mengalir dalam hatiku berubah menjadi air kesepian. aku sangat berharap hujan tak akan pernah pergi menggilakanku sedikitpun seperti cinta yang waktu itu menghilang seakan tak berjejak. tak ada kata lagi yang bisa aku ungkap untuk semua kenyataan yang tak pernah mungkin berbohong. sampai detik ini aku takkan mengira jika yang aku lewati ini adalah mimpi yang sudah menjadi kenyataan. menghilangnya sesuatu yang paling dalam yang pernah aku rasakan. andai kamu adalah hujan yang selalu setia datang saat aku tenggelam dalam kelelahan menghadapi kehidupan yang tak pernah sempurna. mungkin aku takkan pernah mengenal apa itu merasakan. merasakan saat sesuatu itu datang dan pergi. cuma hujan yang dapat mengerti bagaimana aku merasakan saat aku merasakan hal yang tak seharusnya aku rasakan. karenanya aku mengerti, mengerti artinya dilewatkan bagai hujan yang jatuh mengalir melewati semua titik. aku rindu untuk dinomorsatukan. aku rindu untuk diperhatikan. semua kerinduan itu terbalaskan saat kita dipertemukan oleh sebuah waktu yang yang tak pernah ada untuk menjadi nyata. hujan adalah alasanku satu satunya untuk selalu menjagamu dengan erat tanpa pernah terjaga.

what are you thinking?

I was just there myself. I just simply could be like this. I want to be like that. I do not need criticism from you. I do not take insults from you. All I need is all the support from you. Talking is easy but it is not as easy as I did. My life is not for life. You do not have to bother to take care of my life. I have my own way to enjoy and live my life. I had a separate intent and purpose behind what I take and I passed. You are not a God who makes destiny for me, you're not a mother who can manage my life. You do not know who I am. You do not know what the reason. Do you know know not just limited to understand. All you see is the cover only not the content. I've determined from birth like this. I will also not be able to escape from this reality. You only see me from what I'm doing instead of what I'm thinking.

The Destiny

It is the destiny of life. Destiny to meet him or leave him. Sometimes we can not escape from the fact despite the fact that like most bitter taste we've ever tasted. I yes I did them yes they are. I will still feel like this is my destiny. What I choose it has become part of my destiny that God has the chain. If I could choose my path is just fine for sure I would never have passed the point where I'm like this. I wish I knew what was going to happen in my life I probably will not pass you by. If what happened to me can happen to people who always bothers me. If you know how I really want to avoid that fate is always wrong in the eyes of you. But I was helpless and all the delusion that it was just always wished they could feel what I feel.

oh GOD!

why everything is so messed up and destroyed like this anyway? there aja problems coming into my life. there wrote that ruin my life whether friend, best friend, ex, even though families. I do not understand them the same way of thinking how the hell???? I try to be patient, sensitive, forgiving bit by bit but I see they are busy with their lives rich respectively. I try as much as possible to make all of them rich anymore but whatever power I own only one here who has a lot of errors and limits my ability. difficult to know to make the happiness that once coming soon! and I miss it all the same I miss the past that makes me so fresh mind and free it only existed in the past. now I do not so frivolous as this. I do not know how my goals, what should I do, what should I look for??? I do not know! I'm confused what to do to face this all. even now as if all my wrong? oh Lord I'm tired if have to keep on like this I feel like I want to live in peace, and sleep is always a beautiful dream. I live here just wrote taste alone was in the neighborhood I realized there was not ever here ::::: "))))

you do not understand one another's feelings! guys still on selfish! guys still on as a kid! guys still unstable! guys just carried away!

no name

hey how are you over there? how are you? yeah I always hoped you alright. asks, should not I? once wrote? do you think that what memory? hmm ... if, according to my memory of it is you. yes you, you know not why? because I was already in memory spread your virus. you're always in power, you always appear in my mind as if you are king. I also gatau why why. but many times I've thrown everything. but still wonder why you're always here. yes indeed different this time and used. when only a few months ago loh put it this way. but it was already really old. I know that you've really definitely happy I know your life is already far more perfect now than at me. Seeing you happy I'm happy, I also picked up a happy co Seeing you happy with him. I made ​​it all is enough for me during this sadness replace. because I become more convinced that weve already if you can not fight anymore. and I'm sure more of us if there is already a gap to get us back again. although I still hope we are close. but I accept the fact that all that wonderful ko first was not as beautiful as the day when I was alone. you still remember those times when both of us? You do not ask me to come back! because you would already know the answer. I will not be able to leave a second time-this time. I was able to let go of everything Keith although I know it all already stale for you. but this is what I think weve. tormented in your shadow that will not ever be able to be destroyed.

I will leave you

Sometimes we can not blame the fact. Sometimes we are just small creatures who pretend to be unaware of the fact that. Moreover, if the reality was bitter and difficult for us to accept. Some think it is a fact of our lives completely, and some argue the fact that only a very bitter torture and cruel. The reality however and in whatever form that reality did not always run beautifully and seamlessly. Clearly we must accept the fact that despite any bitter reality is that the real truth of life that is absolutely clear. A case like someone left the most highly you love. Pain is to look at the reality. But we have to open our eyes and see clearly that someone who you love so much that it was really a shadow and a recollection of the past alone.

Hey I just ask something

Hey congratulations meet again ....

Who knows how long that word comes in our real life. I can not think why just about you that terbenak closely at the brain. What a power I always try hard to escape from the harsh reality that comes when you no longer reappear. That feeling is very real and inherent. How to get rid of I do not even know if I'm too amnesia when I think about how to keep me free from everything. My life has been far from strands that time. My body was not in my subconscious when I was tied again. Successive season is still in the picture past the left when I tried to get out of the gloom that did not allow me to run more. I had quite a long time waiting for that day will not be that day again. My mind brightened the dark as I realized what it meant to me to not remember you back. All the pretty one in a series of beautiful memory that was part of our lives. Farewell series first couplet future. May we never met when my life is more beautiful than the most beautiful time. Welcome to come back: ")

First Love

Once in a while
You are in my mind
I think about the days theat we had
And i dream that these would all come back to me
If only you know every moment in time
Nothing goes on in my heart
Just like your memories

You will always gonna be the one
How i wish i could have never let you go
Come into my life again
Oh, don't say no
You will always gonna be the one in my life
So true, I believe i can never find
Somebody like you
My first love

Once in a while
Your are in my dreams
I can feel the warmth of your embrace
And i pray that it will all come back to me
If only you knew every moment in time
Nothing goes on in my heart
Just like your memories
And how i want here to be with you
Once more


By : Utada Hikaru

In Lose

I .... I .... I ......

I was trapped here in the corner of the room this time. I pause here this deserted place. I terbisu here this desolate place. I'm just I'm a melancholy. I was no longer me being me. I just pounced on the fact that I was alone. This sport really is no longer as solid as the first. The heart may no longer as strong as before. This flavor is no longer as good as yesterday. I feel different this time. I feel like what I knew. I feel as though this is very bad time for me see. I now there lived a man who may now helpless. As if I was no longer able to continue waiting for tomorrow which always haunted me with the past. That dream has now become the only one who really wants my big dream I realize. Hope it is now the missing dust that would never have come together and come back with the same form.

Wonderful it Must Be Fought

Beautiful yes if all your dreams come true according to what you envision for this. That's what I expect beautiful. Beautiful as shipper, beautiful moment around you, both of you beautiful. Maybe now we are in line and or walking together towards the beginning of something that might be even better. Is it possible that part of love or sympathy alone? Actually I do not know what a sense of comfort and want to be named closer like that. Actually I do not know what the intent and purpose of all this would be fine.

As much as possible I convinced myself. As much as possible I finalize my heart and understand the intent of the heart. But every time I think about it the same hasilnyapun. You are still made ​​me uncomfortable, as if you keep that makes meaningful, you still made ​​me for always watching alone. I do not know what it means I do not know but that just means I know that you can make me cheerful once again.

But I realized that the way we seem to go through one. Shallowness that confront many of us. Many possibilities that will happen between us. I do not know until when everything will continue as it was the birth of what might be like this? But I do not want to if I and you just stop at the same place, only complains tertitik here alone. Every dream that we have we must strive not? as well as we were walking in the wrong place and we have to fight past this error.

Is You

you, you suddenly come into a new sheet that just want to leave me all about love. you, all of a sudden I came not knowing if you hacked into my life. why if it happened when you hugged? why you came at me slumped helplessly weak because of it? why did you gave me a clue when I lose a million directions? and you've got me thinking enough. if I still crave worthy? I still come first whether you deserve? if I was still worth waiting for? if maybe she was created just for me? before you need millions of my time, my brain, and my energy for me to let go of all of that love. but all it seemed to pass when you came in loneliness accompanied my evening. since there you forgotten me all about him, since there you are my world seemed bright again. thank you who always seemed to want to make me better.

Realized

I realize you've gone
I realized our story is over
I understand all of these decisions
I understand the meaning of all this
When I think about you first
It was very painful for me
As I remember about you first
It was so painful my heart
I do not know what all this is true or not
I do not know what all this destiny or not
I do not know what all this is right or not
I do not know what I can or not
I will not wish you back
I would not expect you to think of me
I would not expect it to be real memories again

"Kita" or Just "Me"

Me and you it has become a "We". Said it was good but now it is not as good as its meaning. Now we have to be me and you. Now we've become an individual instead of a pair again. Just as a man who wakes from a dream beauty of it is just going to make us delusional dream world that always makes us to be perfect and special then when we woke up unable to say anything. Just like us, when you and I become one, it makes me perfect and very special because have you. But now I woke up from the word "We" it feels more intense and painful than waking from a dream that I had a lovely long pass almost every night. I used to always be happy with you right now because of you moody. I used to laugh with you apart now be restrained melancholy. I used to always want to be perfect in front of me now a rigid style. First, first, first, why it is always more beautiful to be remembered. Why did so much better before it passed quickly. Why did a lot better before I knew you. Why did so much more beautiful when we are not too far away and deep. But time is so fast yes, time also so cruel. Because time has brought happiness into the piercing too deep. Time has brought you just a moment. I should be grateful and you have made the same time we had felt perfectly when united. I should be more appreciative of the time and you are too loyal leads nowhere so fleeting. But I was wrong, I was wrong to make it too far. As if all that was just passing wind just blink of an eye blink. As if I was just blown dust, missing a heartbeat. I had misjudged us all along. I already gave you one opportunity that just gives me the wound alone. The fact that you are more bitter than I ever imagined. In fact you are only loyal to the ego was not just me. In fact you just leave the memory alone forced to be remembered. Maybe you did not ever feel what I'm feeling and often you probably did not ever think about what I've been thinking. Maybe all this "We" that there's only me that there never was you that I have always dreamed of.

Cinta

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